About The Pain of Porn... This site is for everyone. Everyone is affected negatively by pornography, even if you think it is good.  Soon it will bite you in the back if you stay around it too long.  God made us for love, not for porn. Who am I? My name is Elijah and I am a man of God.  I am true to God, I am true to people.  I am 22 years old and am currently a student at Purdue University.  I have the most amazing and pure relationship with my girlfriend that I have ever seen or heard of.  God is so good, He made me one amazing man and is continuing to refine me and make me even better! That is me now.  It hasn't always been that way.  I was once addicted to pornography. The downward spiral... It started when I was young.  I woke up in the arms of my babysitter and saw some members of my family watching a porn tape they got from the rental place.  Then right after I awoke I was screamed at and told to go to my bedroom, and was locked in.   Several years later I gained access to Playboy magazines and looked at them in secret.  I was addicted.  It took a chunk of my childhood away from me. When the Internet boom happened, in 7th grade I started looking at online pornography.  And I was addicted to that stuff.  All through high school I struggled with the addiction.  I would try to quit but never could.  I hated myself for doing it and I hated what I was doing, yet the evil of pornography had trapped me in and deceived me to believing there was no way out. The addiction affected every area of my life, every thought that went through my mind, every relation that I had.  It affected the way I saw women big time.  Instead of beautiful, made-in-God's image, wonderful people, I saw them instead as objects for my eyes, useful for only one thing: lustful pleasure.  Sure I would say the right things to fit social norms, but my mind was spinning out of control for almost any female that walked by.  Read any book like Every Man's Battle and you'll know what I mean.  It's so wrong, so evil, so deceptive to think this way, and to even believe it is "normal", as many guys I know do.  And if you're reading this and you think about women like this and you think it's normal/okay/Biblically sound, you're DECEIVED.   Come college, and that's where I truely started my relationship with Jesus.  And things started to change. The Remix... I became devoted to God at the start of my college life.  I didn't want to do porn anymore.  It was cool because other guys were also struggling with porn and we could help each other.   At least it was good to know I wasn't the only one, and that's where the healing started.   I truely became convinced that this was evil halfway through my college career, and I vowed to stop.  I would go weeks without it, but would fall and turn to it again.  (What is it that I found in it?  Perhaps a false sense of security?) Then I would go a month or two, but then fall again.   Finally in January of 2004 I started going onto Setting Captives Free and applying Biblical truth to my life and with the help of Jesus, came through to be free from pornography. My life has totally changed since then.  I am regaining what was once mine, my creativity, my pure mind, my truthfulness to my girlfriend, my love for others, my love for God, a desire to grow, and a faith that tells me the future is looking BRIGHT. I can now see women as they are meant to be seen - my mind has been restored!  I'm in a new battle with this website:   fighting down the demons I used to serve!  This is amazing!   God is amazing!   The God I serve... I give all credit to God for helping me out and giving me strength to quit and restoring me to what I was meant to be, as He continually is doing each and every day, making me even better and better as each day goes on.  I want you to know He can and will help you out to if you truely decide to follow Him and His Word (The BIble) and what it says about you.  He loves you more than you can imagine, and wants the best for you.  Accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior and start your relationship with Him today.  And if you already have but still struggle, this site is made especially for you.  Please let us know your story, your struggle, and never, ever give up!  God wants you to fight the evil forces of this world, not comply or reason with them!  Fight!  This is only the beginning...  :)